I hate Fighting and Being angry

I really hate it alot.. Too much drama in too many parts of my life, Chucks sister is making it impossible for me to be happy, I mean she really makes my life miserable. Constantly at her brother about how awful I am, how I am a cheat, am using him for money, that I insist that he buy me things (Where she got that idea from I have no clue) I don't need him for his money(altho his spending it on me and the kids is very nice) I don't know anymore if I can do this. I Am not happy and his family is not happy, if I do what I want to do. No one is going to be happy, especially Charles. In fact he will be miserable, and make his families lives misreable in the process. Not something I would care to be the cause of certainly, but on the other hand, staying in the relationsip is not making me happy. So I find myself in the position of doing what everyone else wants me to do yet again. I find the situation to be one of Damned if I do, Damned if I don't. I liken it to how I have been dealt with by K's family. It doesn't seem to matter to them that I do not want to be cause of so much strife, I know I am not responsible for their feelings, only my own. Yet I feel responsible for placing K in the middle of us. Altho I am not the one who did that. I want to be able to extend an olive branch the way Claud has. But the words stubbornly refuse to come to me. Funny that, I usually do not have a problem expressing my self at all. (As some of you can attest to!) I admire greatly women like Claud who seem to be able to rise above the hurt and offer to try and mend fences before things get completely out of hand and end with people hating each other for no better reason than that they do not agree about how/what/where/when and why. I want K to be able to share all of the things she wants to share, with both her families. And not fear some sort of blow up, or having to deal with tension and hurt feelings.I do not want to be part of her other family, she is a part of mine. I do not want there to be pain or strife for any of us, yet it seems as if there is nothing but pain and strife for some. I wonder if the stupidity of some will force a choice being made. It is not fair.. nope not fair at all...