It's Been Awhile

This post edited for clarity of thought- Because obviously I was very tired and it was not clear who I was speaking about in the latter part of my post. Forgive me, it's been a very stressful month for me.

I did some house cleaning for those of you who noticed. Peacekeeping mode kicked in and while I did say I don't want to play that role anymore, it was in my judgement a thing I had to do.

Things here have been far from peaceful, finals have come and gone, and my GPA is still a solid 3.0 which amazes me given the semester I had. What with people up and leaving, others getting sick, and still others questioning what I knew or don't know about some things going on in my own family.

See the funny thing is this, people can hide things right under your nose. That's why it's called hiding. I can grant you that as a parent I may have blinded myself to some things, what parent doesn't do that?

I am hurt beyond words, and dare I say it? Offended-yes, that is the word for how I feel. By those who sit in judgement of me, of what I say, do, don't do, of what I write. I am heartily sick of all of it. I am also tired of people making assumptions about what I write without asking for clarification.

I am not going to write about the people involved in any of the above things, that's their business and their story. As I say below, the people I care about, I tell them when I am upset. But as for the rest of them? Someday, there will be a reckoning, and I will have my say. If that burns a bridge(s) so be it- Because the people I need to speak my mind to? They don't really matter to me in the long run, but speaking my mind to them will surely make me feel a whole better in the long run.

ETA: IF you think I was writing about those closest to me or to mine when I spoke about having my say, then you are quite sadly mistaken. What I have to say to those I care about, I say-